Anyone that knows me, or has followed me for any length of time, know that I’m prone to taking extended breaks from blogging. These breaks typically start in the fall when my life ramps up with activity. It’s hard for me to balance writing along with everything else that goes on the latter half of the year. I’ve often had to admit to myself that I am not “superman” and that I can’t do everything, so I step away from writing/blogging for a few months.
I wish that were simply the case now, but it’s not…
It’s been a month since I have written/posted anything new, and that was a simple 7-line “Essence” poem on September 1st. Everything after that have been reposts of older pieces that I had written a long time back. To be honest, I am not trying to force the words. I haven’t even attempted to write anything new. Why? Because, the only words that have been coming to me are the ones you are reading right now.
I often wonder why I came back to write in March/April of this year after taking an extended break for several months. Even then, my heart really wasn’t in it anymore, and it hasn’t been for a long, long time. The words are forced and have begun to sound rote (and repetitive) to me. To alleviate that, I tried getting back into storytelling, but even that was escaping me. So, I tried my hand at writing personal essays, but, that…that just isn’t me.
At one time I thought writing was as natural as breathing for me and that it would be impossible for me to stop. I felt like it was an essential part of my life and that I would be lost without it. I’m beginning to think that I was wrong about that and other things as well.
That being said… while I will continue to be around to read and comment, I will be taking an extended break with no promise to return to writing. However, I have no plans on deleting/removing this site. I will keep it up just in case the urge to write ever strikes me again.
AC Elliott, 1 Oct 18